This week is definitely going to challenge me to keep my strategies going because I am on the sugar tablets on the pill. My gyno is starting to introduce my menstrual cycle to give my body a bit of a break instead of having continuous hormones.
The reason why he is doing this is because I have a lot of trouble with my mood when my menstrual cycles occur. I pretty much turn psychotic and it can be quite dangerous. This is the second time of introducing the menstrual cycle so I am quite nervous. I am really worried about feeling like I used to. That I had no control of myself and my actions. When I was in the process of finding the link between my moods and my hormones, the girls were back in danger and I never want to go through that again, let alone be that person again.
I am already feeling on edge and feel like I am going to yell at the girls. In my head I am chanting to myself its just emotions, these emotions will pass. I am trying to focus on one activity at a time instead of letting my brain run wild. I have told Steve that he needs to watch my hormones and that he needs to be firm with my if he feels I am not in control. I don’t like when he has to be firm with him and I will probably hate him for it at the time but he needs to do this.
Wish me luck.